Job X
'She'
Memory I
“She makes the best of mine, of
romance, of love, of craziness, and possibly every sanity and insanity of mine!
If my memory cheats me, it is only in the thoughts of Her. And I love the
game of my memory, which makes me a prey of memories.”
Insanity, which is celebrated within the
conceptual and aesthetic conventions of his spiritualized
neo-radical-humanism, Job is every human being, he hasn’t ever experienced the existence of his soul and self through
them, but the realization of the soul and self is closely related to his
existence when he talks about Her because it is (was) she who brought him to
realm of the celebration of self and soul. Feeling is everything. “She hasn’t
ever talked to me or smiled at me or I haven’t ever had the bloom of being with
her at least for a while, but I have seen her some yards away and at that
moment I haven’t ever thought about her. I think of her now, what a story, I am
damned! The
exceptionality of Her is her presence in my soul and memories, and material
or physical absence in my immediate present or progressive tenses.”
“If I have loved anyone in my life
and in this world, it is carol.” love for Her is entirely different from any
love stories I have ever heard in my life. It’s here She makes the difference; she is still active in his soul
because of her physical absence. She becomes a
part of his soul, that’s why, maybe he still loves her and she doesn’t know it,
but being a part of his soul she must have felt it. Who knows it? I pity him
for his classic love. He says, “There is weird pleasure in loving someone who
doesn’t love you.” he is insane on his on terms and definitions, discourses and
events.
“I had crushes, romances,
infatuations and everything that we would attribute to the love of a young man
who is attracted to a girl...” I interrupted him for my own aesthetic comforts
and voyeuristic tendencies. I wanted to start the journey from the beginning
and I know it’s different because there is a beautiful and perfect fusion of
all binaries including sanity and
insanity. I wanted to hear his romantic journey, unanticipated occurrences of the far-fetched
realities and the absence of the anticipated proximities; celebration of the
self and soul; spiritualization of the materialism and spiritualized
materialism of institutionalized religions and societal institutions;
beautification of the absurdity and the celebration of the imperfection;
pleasure of enjoying the stupidities and laughing at oneself; pleasure of doing
something which is never wanted to be done and thinking which is never wanted
to be thought of; anesthetification
of the memories of unwanted assumption and resurrection of the memories buried
in the thick thoughts of life; aesthetification
of the absurdities of life and beautification of it in terms of co related
elements of events; deconstructionalization
of the structured and institutionalized life, culture, tradition, custom and
practices; experimentation on the neo-radical-humanism which is invented by his
insanity in which he adds 1% of faith, 3.7% of Transcendentalism, 5.30% of
Existentialism, 15% of Buddhism, 30% of Naturalism, 15% of Radicalism, 10% of
Spiritualism, 20% of Deconstruction. And he begins his story...
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