Job IV
Judges
Living
and celebrating his life Job creates his legend.
As
a man of 24, the question of self, individuality and the result of
self-examination never visited his mind until he was asked all these questions
in his maiden interview for a lecturer post in a college. He hasn’t ever
thought about his capacity to influence others and the description of Job as an
individual.
In
a fine morning Job is sitting before the principal lady of a college and she
asked him the first question, “Job, how would you describe yourself as an
individual?” A bunch of questions have
run through his mind on the relevance of his individuality and the definition
of the name Job, which represents an individual. The lady entertained him with
her second question, “Job, how much you can influence a person and what
percentage will you give for your influencing quality?” Influence, influence,
influence and influence. It was his first time ever in his life he was thinking
something about his influencing quality. While the lady was elaborating her
question he was sinking in to the deep potholes of events where he could find
examples for ‘influence’. “How can I influence someone? Have I ever influenced
anyone? Do I like to influence someone? No I don’t like to influence anyone
because I believe in essentiality”, a bunch of questions marched through his
mind and he asked himself the questions. "well, mam, I really have no idea about the quality of my influence, but i'm sure that I do nothing mysef to influence people. I need them all to make mistakes and correct them by their own lives. I like people to study from their life. above all I don't search for perfection. so, i don't have any role models. well, I proud enough to say that I influence myself every day" he said. anyhow, he got that job.
On
the way back to his home he tried to recollect the questions and answers he was
asked and he has given, but having failed to recollect them he was thinking
something about the definitions he has to make for himself as an answer for his
interviewer. The definition for him as an individual and the percentage for his
influencing capacity!
“I
know my soul and the essence of my life, but I can never define me as an
individual because I change every minute. I was thinking something else about
me last day and I am not what I was thinking last day about me. Yesterday, I
thought I never can, but I can today. I was wrong yesterday, but I am right
today. My ideas, views, principles, values, knowledge, horizon, and ‘and’ are
changing day by day and minute by minute. So how can I define me?” He prayed god to answer his
doubts about his ‘things’.
“O
god, please forgive me for not believing in heaven and hell”, he started to
pray for an answer he has to make for the questions about his existence in
order to satisfy the world around him. “O god, please give me some definite
passions, for I may concentrate on one. I have many passions and none of them
helps me to focus on particular one. If you ask me whether I like arts, yes, I
do. Whether I like photography, yes, I do. Whether I like writing, yes, I do.
Whether I like science, yes I do. Whether I like…, o god it seems I like
everything except mathematics. I can do everything, I love everything. So
please help me to really love one thing at least for the sake of their
questions. I still don’t know my likes, interests, romances, passions; what a
man I am!” he embraced his bed and fell in sleep.
Job
doesn’t love perfection, he thinks that perfection makes him complete. He never
wants to be complete so he always gives a space for imperfection in his every
thoughts, dreams, things, arts and life. He loves god, the Nature and its
classified mysteries. He tries to see himself in every existing and nonexistent
organism in this universe. He is bit of every man, he buys books so as not to
read them; he goes to concerts without caring to hear the music or to see who’s
there; he takes long walks because he is sick of walking; he spends whole days
in the country, just because it bores him; and goes church because he doesn’t
believe in heaven.
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